Anywhere I go I hear Christmas songs. I see sidewalk vendors selling wreath and Christmas decors. I smell Glühwein (spiced hot wein) . Shopping malls are crowded than usual and people are busy buying presents for their loveones. Christmas time is here again.
Just like everyoneelse, the preparation for the coming advent has kept me busy.
I made a wreath, baked three kinds of cookies and decorated our home a bit. A bit lang muna dahil all the rest will be made few days before Christmas pa. Unlike at home in the Philippines, beginning of December pa lang nakatayo na ang Christmas tree.
Yulitide season always make me feel homesick. Well, maybe because
21 years na akong hindi na naka attend ng Christmas celebration doon or more likely it’s the spirit of Christmas at home what I’m missing. Different country…different tradition. Yep, I’m aware of that fact and I should have been adjusted to that kong sa tagal ko na dito ang pag-uusapan. Pero sa tutuo lang, yan ang nag-iisang bagay na hindi ko makasanayan. If I’m materialistic siguro masaya ako because they are so generous here when it comes to gift. But I am not. Para akong batang hinahanap-hanap ang saya ng buong pamilya na magkakasama sa pagsalo-salo during Christmas eve. I miss the paputok and the Christmas carols at iba pa.
Ano ba ang pasko dito? Well, we attend mass at 6 o’clock p.m, pagkatapos ay uwian na and we dine together. After dining…bigayan na ng regalo, konting kuwentuhan…tapos tulugan na. Kahit gustuhin ko man na maging masaya I still can’t be in a high spirit if all the rest are not in festive mood like me. I can’t even influence them even if I wanted to. Upps! Sino nga ba ang “them”? Teka, teka…hibang na talaga ako. Sa sobrang imagination I almost forgot there’s only me, my husband and the 2 kids lang pala.
Okay back to reality! I know I’m getting melodramatic, so I think I’d better stop bago ako mapaiyak. I don’t want to cry right now dahil hindi waterproof mascara ang gamit ko.