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Nov 20 2010
Winter – is the time of the year when Winter is the time of the year when nature goes dormant and everyone’s favorite conversation is “Oh yes, it’s finally Winter!” and “Oh DAMN IT. I’m not emotionally ready to wave goodbye to the summer yet.”
As for me, I am definitely a summer person. I DO HATE WINTER because:
Are you a summer or a winter person? If you’re a winter person, please me enlighten with your reasons Why you love winter.
Sep 30 2010
The Last Time I felt Like This (Background music anyone?)
Who was your first love? Why did you break up with him or her? And do you still love him or her? Would you reconnect if your ways cross again?
We are old enough to answer this question di ba? So no malice please. You may or may not answer this question…it is all up to you.
We can’t help but remember our first loves, even if we’d rather forget them. Whether it was a high school sweetheart, your first real relationship after college, or the first person you said “I love you” to, chances are that person still holds a powerful spell over you.
So I just wanted to ask who was your first love (no need to write the real name, just replace it with dots)? Why did you break up with him or her? And do you still love him or her?
As for me, ang una kong pag-ibig ay si Dot Dot Dot. We didn’t broke up dahil hindi naman kami naging magsyota. Mahal ko siya pero hindi niya ito alam. Hindi niya alam dahil wala din siyang nakitang hint, at hindi rin ako nag flirt. Pero alam kong mahal din niya ako. Yes, I could feel it but I was not certain if I was right. All I did was waiting, waiting for him to tell me that he loves me too. Alangan namang ako ang manligaw . I was 19, he was 20…we were both young and shy. Nagkahiyaan kaming dalawa…kaya ang labas, para lang kaming magbarkada. Around 1981, umalis ako sa dati kong tinirhan without telling him. Para que? Basta’t umalis nalang akong bigla. Masakit kasi sa puso ang ganoong sitwasyon. Kaya I decided to move somewhereelse to forget him…
O ano kayo…ano naman ang naging experience niyo sa inyong unang pag-ibig. Don’t be shy girls/boys, common open up .
Desclaimer: Images are not my own; they were found on Google.
I moved somewherelese para kalimutan siya. Kalimutan…is a word that can be easily spoken. Pero ang katutuhanan ay kakaiba dahil siya pa rin ang pinipintig ng aking puso. Siya pa rin ang hinahanap ko kahit noong nagkaroon na ako ng nobyo. Lalong lumabo ang aking pag-aasa nung nagbunga ang relasyon ko kay B.L. Ang masaklap pa nito…he went to the states dahil natapos na ang petition na ginawa ng kanyang mga magulang. Ang petition na yon din ang dahilan kong bakit hindi kami maaring magpakasal noon. Umalis si B. papuntang States matapos kong manganak and he promised to come back para sa aming wedding. Constant pa ang aming communication nung una…but then few months later, bigla nalang itong natigil. I waited patiently…but nothing happened. Until one day, Kuya W. (B’s big bro) came to visit us and told me that I should forget B. because he is already engaged to someoneelse. Hindi ko na kailangan pang sabihin sa inyo kong ano ang naramdaman ko that moment. Gumuho ang aking mundo, and my future was sealed on that day. I lose my face and my future. I said I lose my future dahil alam ko namang wala na akong pag-asang makakapag-asawa pa sa atin. I was only 21 that time. Batang-bata pa di ba? Pero sinong Pinoy ang pupulot sa isang babaeng may anak? WALA! Buti nalang at itinuloy ko ang aking pag-aaral habang naghintay ako kay B. And I was also working at the same time. My studies, my work and my child kept me going…
God didn’t give up on me. Before my last sem started, umuwi ako sandali sa amin para bisitahin ang mga magulang ko. At para na rin humingi ng tawad sa mga kapalpakang naganap sa buhay ko. And when I was there…I met a German who was actually searching for his penpal. To make the story short, nagkatuluyan kaming dalawa. I left Philippines in 1983.
So here we are now in 2010 and things are looking great for me and my family. Last September 15, I went to Frankfurt para makiramay sa isa kong kaibigan. I admit, I am Facebook addict . Kaya kahit saan ang aking punta…di ko kinalimutang sumilip kahit saglit dito. After logging in, I saw I have 3 new messages. One from my sister-in-law, one from my nephew who was asking for his FTP password and one from, OH MY GODDD!!! I almost fall down from my chair!!! I just can’t believe it. Dot Dot Dot wrote something like: Kilala ko pa ba daw siya at iba pa. Sinabi niya sa akin na matagal daw niya akong hinanap. Bakit ako biglang nawala? At iba pa. Sumagot ako sa mensahe niya at doon ko ipinaliwanag ang lahat.
Sa madaling salita, nalaman ko ngayon na after all these years…mahal niya pa rin ako. Ako pa rin ang hanap-hanap niya. Napaiyak ako nung mabasa ko ito. Hindi dahil sa saya kundi dahil nanghinayang ako. Sayang! Bakit hindi niya ito nakuhang sabihin sa akin noon? Bakit ngayon pa? Oo, aminado ako…it feels like heaven dahil ito yong pinakaantay ko noon. Pero huli na ang lahat. Kahit sabihin ko pang may tibok pa rin ang puso ko sa kanya…wala na itong saysay dahil wala na akong kalayaan pang umibig. I have to accept and face it na minsan…madamot talaga ang tadhana.
Jan 21 2010
It was Aug. 31, 2009 when I last posted my last entry here. I even promised to update once in awhile, pero ayon hindi rin natupad. I have less time than I thought, yeah it’s as simple as that. Life has changed since we moved here in Brandenburg and since hubby opened his own medical clinic. Nag changed ang takbo nang buhay ko dahil isa ako sa kanyang fulltime alalay doon. I have to learn a lot of things…with success naman sa awa ng Diyos. Pero it is a challenge talaga to work in a field na labag sa kalooban ko. Lalo na’t hindi ito related sa aking profession, so I’m having a lot of difficulties adjusting to this new role. In addition to that, hindi rin ako sanay na kasama ang asawa sa trabaho or ang asawa ko ang BOSS ko. The problem in the case of a spouse is the potential emotional boomerang. Usually what happens is, if it doesn’t work out, the employee leaves and you never see them again, di vah? But in this case, if it doesn’t work out, you go home and have dinner together. That’s where the problem lies. Infact, we got so consumed with our business relationship that we end up talking/arguing business all the time even at home. So there’s no escape from business at all. The first eight months was a nightmare!
So one day, I was so fed up, I left the clinic without saying a word. Hubby was angry of course, he called and asked me to come back. But all I said was “no I’m not and that we really have to talk when you come home”. Because of that talk, our relationship has flourished to heights that weren’t possible after we start the business. Our heart to heart talk was what made our relationship to what it is now versus what it was before. A hundred times better. Well anyways, concocting the ideal recipe to combine a thriving business and a successful marriage is not easy, especially when you work together, but it can be done with understanding and compromise.
I know that our business is very important but so our marriage and family too. Inspite of all the difficulties…I am still lucky to have a husband like my husband. Who listens to my litany of complaints, opinions and ramblings and takes my feelings into consideration. It was actually my mistake that I didn’t open my mouth and talk about what bothered me earlier ago. We closed this chapter of our life, but we are still working together in our business as TEAM. And we are also working on our marriage to keep the shine. We will keep working on our marriage and working through whatever challenges we would face in the future. There are no experts on marriage and it is not something we learn in a book. But something we must learn by doing over and over again…a practice we must adjust as our journey continues…
We went to Bali for our second honeymoon last Dec. 20 til Dec. 31. We stayed at Nikko Bali Hotel Resort and Spa in Nusa Dua for 10 days. Bali is lovely. It is one of the few places in the whole world that I would actually want to go back. There are stunning sunsets, sculpted rice terraces and a temple on almost every corner. And for less-spiritual seekers, this steamy Indonesian island also has great surfing and a rollicking night life.
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