How Daring


What does a fat desperate woman like me usually think and do when she felt very disappointed of her looks and of her body? I don’t know about the others, but I’ll tell you what my experiences are. Many not so crazy ideas came into my mind, like I wanted to start having diet AGAIN (I know you heard of that already few months ago). Wow! The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak, so ayon the result is…I am fat as ever. Out of despair, dahil hindi na kumasya ang mga summer outfit ko, I bought a diet pills…but oh my gush…I always forgot to take it. Desperate nga kunyari pero kapag nakakita ng pagkain, naglalaway na ako na parang isang aso (slurrfff). Now I realized I am not going to loose weight thru starting a diet and not really doing it. So I decided to do some sport. Well, I used to be active in some sport like horseback riding, swimming, bowling and I used to bike regularly. But I must admit that much of my p.c (pre computer) interest have fallen by the wayside…

Hubby bought me a new bike not long ago, but I always had excuses like “oh it’s so hot today..maybe tomorrow sweetheart”. And guess what, I have another alibi prepared for the next day.

Last week as we went shopping, I saw a roller blade. Crazy as I am I started to baby talk, pointing at the item and said “oh Schatz kann ich auch so eins haben?” (oh darling, can we buy that for me?). Papa G. bought it and soonest we arrived home, I dared to take some few skating lessons from my daughter Kathleen. I wobbled like a toddler…but I find this sport very interesting. Even if I fall down on my butt several times, I did not give up ’til I got the beginners techniques for stance and balance.

Today, feeling more confident and comfortable with my skates. I grabbed the kids with me and we walked down to the schoolyard to have a bigger space for a new lesson. Ouch, I was so reckless and daring I fall on my behind again very badly. With my left leg angled, I attempted to get up and there it happen…I think that was silliest way to get up. My ankle gave a knack sound and that was it, I was limping the whole way back home. What a shit, I sprained my ankle…now it’s swelling and aching badly. But don’t worry folks my doc is taking care of me.

Now that you hurt yourself, are you giving up? Asked my husband. I said no, why should I? It’s a fun thing to do!


Beng Hafner is my name. Well, most of you know that already. I am a mother of 3 and a granny of 3 cute kids. I am proud to be who I am and I am proud of the way I am. I am alive because I have a lot to live for. I have many dreams that I wish to reach for and I have many journeys to make. My life is like a soap opera, and you are the audience.

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