I am no longer surprise why some friends of mine lost their trust towards our Kababayans here abroad. They told me they’d rather choose to make friends with the local residents than to fellow Pinays. I know the fact that some if not many of our Kababayan can be so evil, but still it did not influence my personal belief and opinion. It’s because I believe that in each of us, no matter how bad we are, deep in our heart…lays the human kindness. I was firmly convinced of that until today…

Just a single call from a friend of mine made me think and realized that all the understandings and indulgences I showed to them (THEM - means people I was familiar with before) was for nothing. What a waste, I should have abandoned them long time ago. Now enough is enough!!! What’s the use of believing there is such a trace of kindness in an evil’s heart. It’s a baloney. Despicable people are people whose cruelty, nauseating cuteness, or all-around creepiness have netted them a position in immortality. This kind of people don’t deserved to be treated equally. Why? It’s because they seem not to know how to appreciate and value the kindness I showed to them. Evil remains evil even if they look reformed!!!

Kinasusuklaman ko kayo, mga walang modo. Pfwehhh!

Friend: Dinig ko nandito ka raw last two weeks ago, bakit hindi mo ako tinawagan?
Me: Sorry, pero kaya kami napagawi diyan ay dahil sa holy first communion ng pamangkin ko. Kasama ko ang aking buong pamilya kaya hindi ako nagkaroon ng panahon para isa-isahin ko kayong bisitahin.
Friend: I was so sad, kong kailan kita kinakailangan saka ka wala…I feel so bad at the moment and I don’t know what to do.

And the phone conversation went on and on…our topic was mainly about stress, depression and midlife crisis.

Mukhang marami ang mga dumaranas nito ngayon. That friend of mine who called me is currently under going the famous life begins at… or ika nga midlife. She asked me for an advise what to do? Ouch! Kahit nadaanan ko na ang process of midlife transition na ito nahirapan pa rin akong magbigay ng payo sa kanya. Dahil iba-iba ang factor nito, merong external at meron ding internal at saka we have different types of personalities.

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It’s finally springtime!!! I love the smell in the air during spring. All fresh and new, hmmm (ahhh hatching, sniff sniff). Watching the flowers bloom, the birds building their nests, that whole period of rebirth thing going on. “It’s rejuvenating!”

I should actually feel alive again…like a bear that slowly awakens from its long winter nap. But hell, no I’m not! This year, I decided that I hate spring. It wasn’t a decision that I took lightly, but after sneezing and blowing my nose for what seemed like the hundredth times in the last 30 minutes, it was the only conclusion I could come to. Sometimes, I can barely resist the urge to scream or say f_ck. It sucks!!! At times like this I wanted to pack it in and move to Philippines again. At least the pollen count there would be minimal. Haay naku, kong madali lang sanang gawin eh di nandoon na ako ngayon.

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