Anywhere I go I hear Christmas songs. I see sidewalk vendors selling wreath and Christmas decors. I smell Glühwein (spiced hot wein) . Shopping malls are crowded than usual and people are busy buying presents for their loveones. Christmas time is here again.

Just like everyoneelse, the preparation for the coming advent has kept me busy.

The Christmas wreath I made.

I made a wreath, baked three kinds of cookies and decorated our home a bit. A bit lang muna dahil all the rest will be made few days before Christmas pa. Unlike at home in the Philippines, beginning of December pa lang nakatayo na ang Christmas tree.

Yulitide season always make me feel homesick. Well, maybe because
21 years na akong hindi na naka attend ng Christmas celebration doon or more likely it’s the spirit of Christmas at home what I’m missing. Different country…different tradition. Yep, I’m aware of that fact and I should have been adjusted to that kong sa tagal ko na dito ang pag-uusapan. Pero sa tutuo lang, yan ang nag-iisang bagay na hindi ko makasanayan. If I’m materialistic siguro masaya ako because they are so generous here when it comes to gift. But I am not. Para akong batang hinahanap-hanap ang saya ng buong pamilya na magkakasama sa pagsalo-salo during Christmas eve. I miss the paputok and the Christmas carols at iba pa.

Ano ba ang pasko dito? Well, we attend mass at 6 o’clock p.m, pagkatapos ay uwian na and we dine together. After dining…bigayan na ng regalo, konting kuwentuhan…tapos tulugan na. Kahit gustuhin ko man na maging masaya I still can’t be in a high spirit if all the rest are not in festive mood like me. I can’t even influence them even if I wanted to. Upps! Sino nga ba ang “them”? Teka, teka…hibang na talaga ako. Sa sobrang imagination I almost forgot there’s only me, my husband and the 2 kids lang pala.

Okay back to reality! I know I’m getting melodramatic, so I think I’d better stop bago ako mapaiyak. I don’t want to cry right now dahil hindi waterproof mascara ang gamit ko.


Beng Hafner is my name. Well, most of you know that already. I am a mother of 3 and a granny of 3 cute kids. I am proud to be who I am and I am proud of the way I am. I am alive because I have a lot to live for. I have many dreams that I wish to reach for and I have many journeys to make. My life is like a soap opera, and you are the audience.

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2 Responses

  1. sachiko says:

    My! This is funny! And I can relate to this,too..As you know,Japan is a buddhist country so technically,they don’t celebrate christmas.Ah,iba talaga sa atin,right? New years eve din,maaga matulog ang mga tao dito while when I was in Manila all nighter..Oh,just like you,I wanna celebrate these things with a big bang but…sigh..!

  2. Beng says:

    We have no other choice than to imagine how it used to be
    when we were at home. The memories is still vivid in my mind and it makes me feel a bit better when I imagine it.

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